Wow, I think I finally met a family that is as two-faced as mine.

You know, I feel that if someone is going to preach at you, they need to at least practice what they preach, or at least practice the religion right. Not just do things halfway. That is not respecting God last time I checked. And it won't do for someone to leave comments on my pages anymore. I am disabling all comments. I am tired of that shit being left on my pages or my journals. It is mine and I can say what the hell I want when I want.

FREEDOM OF SPEECH!!!

• 19:26 Is to the point that she only trusts very few people in her life. Is tired of some people thinking they are better then others or perfect. #
• 19:26 NEWSFLASH: Your not GOD!!! #

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Well, I now know to keep my opinions to myself or I am hounded constantly and condemned for them. Thanks for that. I appreciate it.

I finally got to start playing Magic: The Gathering again. I am so happy. I also get to start playing D&D soon. I can't wait. At least that will be when the plans are made. We are having so much fun. I was invited to J and B's for dinner tonight. I am glad. I get to spend sometime with them and with Princess. Things are going so good up here. I start back to school on Monday. I can't wait. I will probably be using J to help me with my computer class. I am so afraid I might fail that class, but I know that I will try really hard to pass. R & R have been so wonderful. I am so glad to be up here with all of them. It has been so long. It also just feels so right. My heart is very happy. I haven't been this happy in a long time. I was happy with Shawn but not like this. I definitely feel and know this is where I and my heart belongs. I am so happy. I miss my dog. But that is understandable also. She is my baby. As for everything else, we will just have to wait and see what happens.

Things are going good here. I miss my dog, but that is to be expected. My stress levels have went down greatly since I got here. I don't have to worry about changing my religion just so that things are perfect. I feel so comfortable here with that. It feels so nice to be able to where my wiccan jewelry again. All I have really been wearing is my triple moon necklace. I felt so naked without it, and am so glad I don't have to hide the actual meaning of it from everyone. He said I didn't have to change, but I did. It was either I convert, or the wedding wouldn't happen in the Church, and he risked not being able to do anything where the church was concerned. So I was basically pressured to convert. That was not right or fair for me. I am so glad to be away from that. I am also so glad I can finally get all of my feelings out. On the flip side, my side hasn't started hurting really badly since I got here, even though I have only been here a day and a half. I am just so relieved.

Well, I am back in Maine. It was one hell of a drive, but I am glad to be back up here. Shawn and I broke up. Actually he broke up with me. According to him, he couldn't deal with my family fighting all the time. I am sorry, families fight. It is a part of life. He also has said that he has a problem with our differences. My God, if we were alike, I would go crazy. Differences is what makes a relationship interesting. John, Bri, Randy, and Randi have welcomed me with open arms back up here. I feel so loved up here. It is so wonderful. I have missed them so much. At least now I know I am wanted. The only thing I am not happy with is that I had to leave my dog down there. That has really upset me, but I am dealing. We will see how things go.

• 14:30 Waiting for the storms to roll in. They will match how I feel today. #

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INSTALLING A HUSBAND

Dear Tech Support ,
Last year I upgraded from Boyfriend 5.0 to Husband 1.0 and noticed a
distinct slow down in overall system performance, particularly in the
flower and jewelry applications, which operated flawlessly under
Boyfriend 5.0 .


In addition, Husband 1.0 uninstalled many other valuable programs,
such as Romance 9.5 and Personal Attention 6.5 , and then installed
undesirable programs such as NBA 5.0 , NFL 3.0 and Golf Clubs 4.1.


Conversation 8.0 no longer runs, and Housecleaning 2..6 simply
crashes the system.


Please note that I have tried running Nagging 5.
3 to fix these problems, but to no avail.


What can I do?

Signed,

Desperate.


---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

DEAR DESPERATE ,

First, keep in mind that Boyfriend 5.0 is an Entertainment Package, while
Husband 1.0 is an operating system.


Please enter command: ithoughtyoulovedme.HTML and try to download
Tears 6..2 and do not forget to install the Guilt 3.0 update.
If that application works as designed, Husband 1.0 should then automatically
run the applications Jewelry 2.0 and Flowers 3.5.


However, remember, overuse of the above application can cause Husband
1.0 to default to Grumpy Silence 2.5, Happy Hour 7.0 or Beer 6.1 .

Please note that Beer 6.1 is a very bad program that will download
the Farting and Snoring Loudly Beta .


Whatever you do, DO NOT under any circumstances install Mother-In-Law
1.0 (it runs a virus in the background that will eventually seize
control of all your system resources).


In addition, please do not attempt to reinstall the Boyfriend 5.0
program. These are unsupported applications and will crash Husband 1.0.


In summary, Husband 1.0 is a great program, but it does have limited
memory and cannot learn new applications quickly. You might consider
buying additional software to improve memory and performance.
We recommend Cooking 3.0 and Hot Lingerie 7.7..

Good Luck!

Tech Support

• 21:50 Is slowly getting her office things ready so she can really start focusing on school and her wedding planning business, and her wedding. #

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• 15:19 Still wants Kentucky Fried Chicken....also has her wedding planning website up and going...www.geocities.com/your.bridalfantasy #

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• 21:31 Still wants Kentucky Fried Chicken...is craving it very horribly. #

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• 18:18 Wishes someone woudl bring her something good to eat from Kentucky Friend Chicken. The box meal to be specific. #

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• 18:46 Is giving up on ever having a happy birthday. her own family doesn't seem to give a shit anymore, why should I? #

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I talked to Heather yesterday when we got the last of my stuff. We were both very cordial about it all. It was kind of strange. She couldn't help but brag that her and Mike are getting married tomorrow (9th). I had always hoped that Shawn and I would be married first. That was what I wanted. I hate having to wait to marry Shawn. I love him and I want to be married to him now. She wants to continue to talk to me. So I guess it is a start. I know that Mike and I have a lot to discuss, and it is going to be rough at first, but I know it has to be done. I just don't know how to bring up to Shawn that I want to get married sooner then what we have planned. We are waiting until 2010. Everyone is having problems trying to figure out why we are waiting for so long. I know that a lot of it has to do with the Catholic obligations, but I just wish we could get married. I know we can't do it in the next few months, but maybe by the end of this year we could pull it together and be ready to have it then. I am just tired of waiting. And no this is not because of all Mike is doing. I want to close that chapter of my life and move on. I guess we will just see what happens.

• 16:59 Has twisted her ankle badly and it hurts like hell. #
• 17:00 @shawnwise I am so happy for you. I love you very much. #

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• 14:47 @shawnwise Is so happy for you. I hope you are having fun. #
• 14:47 Trying to play catch up with school and trying to keep from wanting to get sick, #

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I haven't written in here for a few weeks. Last week was very interesting. I left Shawn on Monday because I just got tired of all the giving I was doing and not getting anything in return in our relationship. I came back on Wednesday. We sat and talked. I told him that I felt like I was the one that was doing everything where our relationship was concerned. I know we don't spend a lot of time together because I am always studying, but I have a degree I am trying to get. I am trying to make our life better for us. So far, me and his mom have done all the purchasing when it comes to our wedding. We have seen little cute things that would look really nice, and bought them because we are afraid if we don't, then we won't get them. I have been thinking about putting the wedding off until we can both equally contribute to the buying of things and booking the vendors. It needs to be an equal thing between the two of us. Not just one of us doing all the buying of things. Oh well. I guess I will just have to see how things go. I had mentioned something about setting a schedule for me and him. Like I study three days a week, have one day for myself, then the rest spend with him. I haven't done it yet. I am so far behind from where I had to settle things from last week, and have no hope I think of catching up. I have been basically pulling my assignments together by the edge of my ass. It has not been pretty, but I am still holding a 100% in both classes, so I am not going to gripe. I guess we will see how things go.

• 13:08 wishes her fianfce would call her. #

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Well, I wondered when it would happen. I have done nothing but cry for the past two hours. I didn't know I could hurt or miss someone as much as I do. This hurts so much. I just don't know what to do. I felt like I was doing the right thing, but I guess I was wrong. I just don't know what to do.